Me and my almost non-existent experience with the opposite sex has made a slight improvement in the last few days. I made more of a real effort and actually chatted with some women in a local bar/club. If that wasn’t novel enough I actually gave my e-mail to someone; of course she was married with three kids, but she wanted it to give to some single friends she had.
I guess my timid and uncomfortable manner in bars, and around lots of attractive women make me appear “safe”. Being safe is good when you are looking for a relationship, but bad for meeting women or if you are looking to have meaningless sex. I would like to have a relationship that includes, at the very least a slight hope of, sex.
I have begun to understand why I have been single for the 26 years of my life, save for two days, and begun to rectify the problem. My largest issue has been lack of effort and confidence on my part.
Fear is another factor. My perception of the world didn’t help. I have had a mostly negative view of too many “popular” things because of my status for so many years as an outsider. People fear and hate what they do not understand. That statement applies to me and the people around me. The biggest thing helps with that is me approaching people and attempting to be sociable – my conversation skills are still lacking, however.
I have also made a major effort to better my appearance form my overly casual, don’t care look to something more approachable. I have found a business casual look works best for me (I think). My recently recedent acne has helped quite a bit as well. I really need to find a happy place with my hair and think about contacts to round out my mini self-makeover.
I’ve also been less picky at who I’m looking for. That hasn’t improve my prospects much: I still have the amazing ability to fine only married, attached, completely uninterested, or lesbian women. If they are single they are cougar(ish). WTF!!! I am still terrified of really hot women, but that may be a good thing.
I will say this - some styles I just don’t understand, and really don’t want too. To any women who happen upon this rambling prose:
First: Flip-flops ARE NOT SHOES! They have the opposite affect of heels. I don’t expect ladies to wear 5” stilettos all the time (though, I wouldn’t complain), but flip-flops are barely a notch above bare feet. Normally people dress up a little when they go out, those things just show me that you don’t care.
Second: This is not really a dating/bar/etc. issue, but makes me wonder a little bit: pajama bottoms and slippers in public. There is a Seinfeld episode about that for Pete’s sake! If I was to go out in public wearing sweat pants people would wonder if I was a (cliché) hick or had given up on life. (Going to the gym being an exception to that rule)
I’m not terribly picky (beggars can’t be choosers), but those two things turn me off in a hurry. I could list all of the things I don’t like, but that might be counter productive and fodder for another entry.
Update: 21 May
Someone I know thought I was being silly and that was a comfortable way to dress.
-Fine, I wasn't complaining about that manner of dress when people go to the store (though I don't see flip-flops as being much better than bare feet)... just when people got to clubs, bars, work, restaurants, etc. Jeans and sneakers would be the minimum for 'going out'.